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Thursday, February 26, 2009
Bits and Pieces
Suddenly a familiar feeling came back…
That gut wrenching, heart throbbing, feeling of pure happiness.
Maybe it was just something I ate, she thought in the car ride home, or maybe it was the movie, well it could have been both.
Why now though? Of all the possible worse moments in timing, why now? She didn’t dwell on the why so much since she was so happy but what triggered this feeling? Something she saw, the places she went, the way people acted, or maybe every event in the day? She didn’t think about it much after that; she just stared into the darkness for the duration of the car ride, listening to some slow romantic songs. Not those terrible ones about a boy and a girl falling in love, but the ones that sound like poetry, the ones that make you feel like you’re in some fantasyland.
By now she was so deep in thought she couldn’t help stopping herself from entering fantasyland, and the reminiscing began. The last time she felt this way was when she was much younger, when innocence and love clouded her world forever.
She was about sixteen then, and they were in the same place, it was a crowded day, people she was just getting to know surrounded her and she was just being herself, crazy, childish, and alive. Then she saw him, he was staring right at her, but she looked away thinking he was just looking within the area which she sat, so she looks at him again and there he is staring at her, but this time she caught him and he looks away, embarrassed of course. She thought nothing of it.
They had met before on several occasions and she had never thought of him liking her, but now she thought about it….
“Me? No way!” she said to herself walking away, thinking how silly she could be.
They were seated inside and it was dark. There were stolen glances, many flirtatious remarks, but nothing, no sign, nothing major. But then she gets a note:
“Can you meet me in the lobby?” She felt like she was in one of those silly romantic comedies she always watches, she got up and left for the lobby.
There he was standing so confidently against the wall, waiting for her to come out and meet her. The place was still crowded and still a bit noisy. But she walked over to him not the least bit nervous, but thinking.
They stared at each other for a while, just making eye contact and then he speaks.
“I like you, you know, you’re really awesome, and I just wanted to tell you, so yeah, I guess I just told you.”
She looks at him for a while and says nothing, and doesn’t move, but inside she’s jumping up and down, laughing and singing, and can’t stop smiling. So she lets him see a little smile on her face, and she sees a huge smile on his face.
They start to look around and she suggests they go back to their friends, when they both don’t want to. So they begin to walk back, each with their hands dangling down on their sides and close enough to hold hands, but they don’t. Instead they gently touch shoulder-to-shoulder, arm-to-arm, their fingers brushing each other’s ever so lightly as they enter the hall where the rest of their friends are. Around their friends they stay around the room, the entire night is lost with secret glances and giggles. They feel connected like no one else is in the room. It’s just them in their own world, and then….
The brakes in the car jam – Whiplash! A sudden stop at a red light.
He’s not here any more she kept reminding herself, no more fantasyland. This is reality, and I am happy with reality.
That bittersweet moment passes, and she gets lost again in the poetic lyrics and wonderfully romantic compositions that are playing in the car, she is lost in the darkness of the outside. No longer thinking of how staring was so romantic, how the eyes told her so much of emotion, of Love.
That gut wrenching, heart throbbing, feeling of pure happiness.
Maybe it was just something I ate, she thought in the car ride home, or maybe it was the movie, well it could have been both.
Why now though? Of all the possible worse moments in timing, why now? She didn’t dwell on the why so much since she was so happy but what triggered this feeling? Something she saw, the places she went, the way people acted, or maybe every event in the day? She didn’t think about it much after that; she just stared into the darkness for the duration of the car ride, listening to some slow romantic songs. Not those terrible ones about a boy and a girl falling in love, but the ones that sound like poetry, the ones that make you feel like you’re in some fantasyland.
By now she was so deep in thought she couldn’t help stopping herself from entering fantasyland, and the reminiscing began. The last time she felt this way was when she was much younger, when innocence and love clouded her world forever.
She was about sixteen then, and they were in the same place, it was a crowded day, people she was just getting to know surrounded her and she was just being herself, crazy, childish, and alive. Then she saw him, he was staring right at her, but she looked away thinking he was just looking within the area which she sat, so she looks at him again and there he is staring at her, but this time she caught him and he looks away, embarrassed of course. She thought nothing of it.
They had met before on several occasions and she had never thought of him liking her, but now she thought about it….
“Me? No way!” she said to herself walking away, thinking how silly she could be.
They were seated inside and it was dark. There were stolen glances, many flirtatious remarks, but nothing, no sign, nothing major. But then she gets a note:
“Can you meet me in the lobby?” She felt like she was in one of those silly romantic comedies she always watches, she got up and left for the lobby.
There he was standing so confidently against the wall, waiting for her to come out and meet her. The place was still crowded and still a bit noisy. But she walked over to him not the least bit nervous, but thinking.
They stared at each other for a while, just making eye contact and then he speaks.
“I like you, you know, you’re really awesome, and I just wanted to tell you, so yeah, I guess I just told you.”
She looks at him for a while and says nothing, and doesn’t move, but inside she’s jumping up and down, laughing and singing, and can’t stop smiling. So she lets him see a little smile on her face, and she sees a huge smile on his face.
They start to look around and she suggests they go back to their friends, when they both don’t want to. So they begin to walk back, each with their hands dangling down on their sides and close enough to hold hands, but they don’t. Instead they gently touch shoulder-to-shoulder, arm-to-arm, their fingers brushing each other’s ever so lightly as they enter the hall where the rest of their friends are. Around their friends they stay around the room, the entire night is lost with secret glances and giggles. They feel connected like no one else is in the room. It’s just them in their own world, and then….
The brakes in the car jam – Whiplash! A sudden stop at a red light.
He’s not here any more she kept reminding herself, no more fantasyland. This is reality, and I am happy with reality.
That bittersweet moment passes, and she gets lost again in the poetic lyrics and wonderfully romantic compositions that are playing in the car, she is lost in the darkness of the outside. No longer thinking of how staring was so romantic, how the eyes told her so much of emotion, of Love.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Cruel Life...
The World is cruel,
But how can I fix that?
People are cruel,
But how can I fix that?
I sit and watch and wonder, how can I fix theses things. Small problems and big problems, all sorts of problems. Not being able to do anything kills me as I suffer in the cruel world...It builds up and then it's too late and I can't take it any more -
I'm Done
But how can I fix that?
People are cruel,
But how can I fix that?
I sit and watch and wonder, how can I fix theses things. Small problems and big problems, all sorts of problems. Not being able to do anything kills me as I suffer in the cruel world...It builds up and then it's too late and I can't take it any more -
I'm Done
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Twilight Saga
So recently I've been addicted to the Twilight Saga, four books about a vampire and a human falling in love...typical girlie stuff - but its just soooo good!
The movie come out on November 21st, a few days before my birthday and I'm sure it'll be fantastic :D
The movie come out on November 21st, a few days before my birthday and I'm sure it'll be fantastic :D
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
A lil Shoutout!
Hello everyone,
To all you music lovers, I know a young and upcoming rapper that is trying to finish up his mixtape, "The Greatest Story Ever Told"
His name is MC G-Singh and you can listen to his tracks at:
www.myspace.com/turbanator28
I'd really appreciate it if you guys give him a listen, I think he's doing a great job, being as young as he is.
t-k
To all you music lovers, I know a young and upcoming rapper that is trying to finish up his mixtape, "The Greatest Story Ever Told"
His name is MC G-Singh and you can listen to his tracks at:
www.myspace.com/turbanator28
I'd really appreciate it if you guys give him a listen, I think he's doing a great job, being as young as he is.
t-k
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
"Love You Till the End"
I wake up in the morning
and I have a smile on my face.
I got to the mirror
and begin to giggle.
I am here and you are there
and I still get dolled up for you.
I feel like you're always with me
and watching my every move.
I hear the sappy love songs play
and I turn up the volume.
I sing as loud as I can
and imagine how crazy you think I am.
I love watching the seasons change
and walking through the parks.
I can feel you grab my hand
and pull me in close.
I hear you play your music
and fall in love with your passion.
I love it when you teach me new things
and know sometimes it doesn't seem that way.
I respect everything about you
and in return you treat me like a Princess.
I love it when you tell me you want me to be part of your world
and tell me about your dreams for us.
I go to bed every night thinking of you
and hope to meet you in my dreams.
I want to tell you how special you make my life
and how lucky I feel that you chose me.
To you my Love,
I owe you everything.
For every smile you've given me
Is another moment made special in my life.
t-k
and I have a smile on my face.
I got to the mirror
and begin to giggle.
I am here and you are there
and I still get dolled up for you.
I feel like you're always with me
and watching my every move.
I hear the sappy love songs play
and I turn up the volume.
I sing as loud as I can
and imagine how crazy you think I am.
I love watching the seasons change
and walking through the parks.
I can feel you grab my hand
and pull me in close.
I hear you play your music
and fall in love with your passion.
I love it when you teach me new things
and know sometimes it doesn't seem that way.
I respect everything about you
and in return you treat me like a Princess.
I love it when you tell me you want me to be part of your world
and tell me about your dreams for us.
I go to bed every night thinking of you
and hope to meet you in my dreams.
I want to tell you how special you make my life
and how lucky I feel that you chose me.
To you my Love,
I owe you everything.
For every smile you've given me
Is another moment made special in my life.
t-k
Thursday, February 14, 2008
In the End
Dedicated to my Late Grandfather:
As I walked the streets
all by myself
I saw many things
and heard many sounds.
As I kept walking
walking up and down
I realised how alone I was
when between the crowd.
All dressed in white
we walk down the road
tears rolling off our faces
fear growling in our soul.
Why do we cry,Oh why do we cry?
our loved one is now forever safe
away from crime, war, and hate
safe from this cruel world.
How dare he take away
how dare he hurt us so
how dare he give us
soo much pain.
It is in these moments
that we question faith
the Lord who gave us everything
has now taken it all away.
So why do we fear this journey
the path leading us closer to God
why do we fear that moment
when we say Goodbye to all.
In the end we go alone
so as we walk the streets
remember ll the laughs and love
and remember your way home.
These are the moments
these are the days
when we begin to realise
how much we've lost and gained.
As I walked the streets
all by myself
I saw many things
and heard many sounds.
As I kept walking
walking up and down
I realised how alone I was
when between the crowd.
All dressed in white
we walk down the road
tears rolling off our faces
fear growling in our soul.
Why do we cry,Oh why do we cry?
our loved one is now forever safe
away from crime, war, and hate
safe from this cruel world.
How dare he take away
how dare he hurt us so
how dare he give us
soo much pain.
It is in these moments
that we question faith
the Lord who gave us everything
has now taken it all away.
So why do we fear this journey
the path leading us closer to God
why do we fear that moment
when we say Goodbye to all.
In the end we go alone
so as we walk the streets
remember ll the laughs and love
and remember your way home.
These are the moments
these are the days
when we begin to realise
how much we've lost and gained.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
*---*
Have you ever feared
a feeling so wonderful
something passionate
something strong
Something forbidden
something unimaginable
have you ever feared
an everlasting love?
Two souls may be
torn to shreds
two hearts
with one eternal beat.
Why must it be society
that tears two souls apart
two hearts wanting and needing
only to become one.
They are torn
by hate
by ignorance
even by race.
Why must the world be so selfish
to kill something so pure
to kill a bond so strong
that could change the world.
With stories of lovers
Romeo and Juliet
Laila and Majnu
lives end in tragedy.
Why keep two souls apart
when they should be together
why let them breathe alone
when they should breathe as one?
In this new world
in this new era
has society learned?
can they understand?
And for those two lovers
two risk takers
two daredevils
all I wonder is...
How Shall Their Story End?
t-k
a feeling so wonderful
something passionate
something strong
Something forbidden
something unimaginable
have you ever feared
an everlasting love?
Two souls may be
torn to shreds
two hearts
with one eternal beat.
Why must it be society
that tears two souls apart
two hearts wanting and needing
only to become one.
They are torn
by hate
by ignorance
even by race.
Why must the world be so selfish
to kill something so pure
to kill a bond so strong
that could change the world.
With stories of lovers
Romeo and Juliet
Laila and Majnu
lives end in tragedy.
Why keep two souls apart
when they should be together
why let them breathe alone
when they should breathe as one?
In this new world
in this new era
has society learned?
can they understand?
And for those two lovers
two risk takers
two daredevils
all I wonder is...
How Shall Their Story End?
t-k
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
A slight awakening...
I was napping on my bed
the sun shining on my face
All the pain of being sick rushes back
I feel like utter crap.
I realised what my dream was
I realised how much I would lose;
all the people
everyone I loved.
The fear of leaving
makes me cold
I reach for my blanket
and begin to sob.
I hear the door crack open
I wipe my tear in a hurry
And in he walks with so much courage
sits right on my bed, and kisses me.
Who would have thought
my four legged friend
could be the one to keep me warm
to make me safe, when I needed a friend.
How is it that we always fight with siblings
but when cheering up is needed
they don't have to ask whats wrong
to make you smile once again.
We claim our parents are from another planet
they do not understand us
so how is it when I was the most depressed
their comfort was all that was sought.
Oh the things we take for granted
We only see when we can lose them
A slight awakening from a nap
oh the things it uncovers.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Notes on Love
I keep the doors unlocked
the blinds open
I sit by the window
looking for you.
I wait by my bedside
thinking and hoping
you'll walk through the door
so I close my eyes.
I still remember your smile
your wink
your touch
And all the "I Love You's"
It's hard to think
that you still aren't with me
not here
not by my side
It's hard to know
that we're both alone
lacking a companion
lacking that lovely passion
It's hard to feel
every heartbeat now
every beat is
Heartache
the blinds open
I sit by the window
looking for you.
I wait by my bedside
thinking and hoping
you'll walk through the door
so I close my eyes.
I still remember your smile
your wink
your touch
And all the "I Love You's"
It's hard to think
that you still aren't with me
not here
not by my side
It's hard to know
that we're both alone
lacking a companion
lacking that lovely passion
It's hard to feel
every heartbeat now
every beat is
Heartache
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
uh oh....
Its been a while I know, but just in the middle of a little road block and I'll be back up and running things with the blog...
t-k
t-k
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Sometimes...
Sometimes late at night
When the moon shines through my window
The candles are lit
and the music is soothing.
On these nights
I feel you there
Here in this room
with me always.
As I lay in bed
I begin to get drowsy
I turn to my side
and feel you holding me tight.
Sometimes late at night
I can feel your breath
whispering into my ear
and the warmth of your hand; it feels so real.
I gaze outside my window again
and remember a night just like this
when you took me into your arms
and we had our first kiss.
How I long for those nights
again and again
to feel you holding me
all through the night.
When the moon shines through my window
The candles are lit
and the music is soothing.
On these nights
I feel you there
Here in this room
with me always.
As I lay in bed
I begin to get drowsy
I turn to my side
and feel you holding me tight.
Sometimes late at night
I can feel your breath
whispering into my ear
and the warmth of your hand; it feels so real.
I gaze outside my window again
and remember a night just like this
when you took me into your arms
and we had our first kiss.
How I long for those nights
again and again
to feel you holding me
all through the night.
Friday, May 18, 2007
In time...
In time
we won't see
we won't speak
enough to each other
that'll be satisfying to me.
In time
he will be there
she will be here
miles and miles apart
tearing along two crazy hearts.
In time
these two souls
will forget
that initial moment
exactly what they felt.
In time
they will forget
how it felt
when ones lips
touched the others.
In time
one day
again they will meet
their eyes will lock
fixed on one another.
In time
they will walk
to each other fast
now running
to feel that embrace again.
In time
they will learn
how to wait
wait for each other
to grow with another.
In time
they will come
come together
just them two
together forever.
In time
they will discover
their love
has lived long and strong
yes! they were meant to be.
In time
not sure when
not sure how
in time it will happen
and be together at last.
In time...
In time it will all happen
In short periods of time
In long periods of time
They will grow together
Till the end of time.
we won't see
we won't speak
enough to each other
that'll be satisfying to me.
In time
he will be there
she will be here
miles and miles apart
tearing along two crazy hearts.
In time
these two souls
will forget
that initial moment
exactly what they felt.
In time
they will forget
how it felt
when ones lips
touched the others.
In time
one day
again they will meet
their eyes will lock
fixed on one another.
In time
they will walk
to each other fast
now running
to feel that embrace again.
In time
they will learn
how to wait
wait for each other
to grow with another.
In time
they will come
come together
just them two
together forever.
In time
they will discover
their love
has lived long and strong
yes! they were meant to be.
In time
not sure when
not sure how
in time it will happen
and be together at last.
In time...
In time it will all happen
In short periods of time
In long periods of time
They will grow together
Till the end of time.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
The word Love...
Lately I have been thinking about the word Love a lot, especially in regards to my life.
Its almost been ages now and just thinking back to our earlier days, I have always wondered what is Love??
Well, to answer this question to a few individuals it is just a feeling, when you feel Love it's your emotion at the time, so don't let it pass away, grab onto it, grab it, seize it, and take advantage of it.
Timing is never right for anyone these days too, "I'm busy with school and work, so no time for a relationship" Make the bloody time then yeah!!!
People - don't run away from Love - enjoy it while it lasts, it might be your first and last time to Love...
Inspired by "The Word"
Its almost been ages now and just thinking back to our earlier days, I have always wondered what is Love??
Well, to answer this question to a few individuals it is just a feeling, when you feel Love it's your emotion at the time, so don't let it pass away, grab onto it, grab it, seize it, and take advantage of it.
Timing is never right for anyone these days too, "I'm busy with school and work, so no time for a relationship" Make the bloody time then yeah!!!
People - don't run away from Love - enjoy it while it lasts, it might be your first and last time to Love...
Inspired by "The Word"
Sunday, May 13, 2007
he's the one...
he's the one...
he took my heart
he broke my heart
and then mended it back together
he's the one...
who sweeps you off your feet
holds your hand
kisses your cheek
he's the one...
you can feel safe with
cry with
and laugh with
he's the one...
you can give your heart to
give your life to
give your soul to
he's the one...
who puts you on a pedestal
who kisses you while you sleep
makes you soup when you're sick
he's the one...
you can grow old with
become a kid with
who loves you for you
he's the one...
I Love...
he took my heart
he broke my heart
and then mended it back together
he's the one...
who sweeps you off your feet
holds your hand
kisses your cheek
he's the one...
you can feel safe with
cry with
and laugh with
he's the one...
you can give your heart to
give your life to
give your soul to
he's the one...
who puts you on a pedestal
who kisses you while you sleep
makes you soup when you're sick
he's the one...
you can grow old with
become a kid with
who loves you for you
he's the one...
I Love...
Monday, April 23, 2007
"I love you..."
We sit here staring
Just staring into each others eyes
We see that love
filling our eyes
You look at me
And I shyly look away
you pull me back
And take me into your arms
You pull me close enough
and give me a big hug
then whisper into my ear
"I love you"
You get a bit nervous
As you look back into my eyes
seeking a reply
I look down and smile
You look at me waiting
hoping you weren't a fool
I kiss you on the forehead
and say "I love you too"
That was the day my life changed
That was the day I felt happiest
You holding me in your arms
Until the sun went down
Thank you for giving me the best gift of all
That feeling of love
This feeling of giving love
Thank you for being the one for me
Just staring into each others eyes
We see that love
filling our eyes
You look at me
And I shyly look away
you pull me back
And take me into your arms
You pull me close enough
and give me a big hug
then whisper into my ear
"I love you"
You get a bit nervous
As you look back into my eyes
seeking a reply
I look down and smile
You look at me waiting
hoping you weren't a fool
I kiss you on the forehead
and say "I love you too"
That was the day my life changed
That was the day I felt happiest
You holding me in your arms
Until the sun went down
Thank you for giving me the best gift of all
That feeling of love
This feeling of giving love
Thank you for being the one for me
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
to me mum...
So to you mum
I can only say
through all the fights
and fits we've had
I love you still
till the end
You brought me here
into this world
to become you
and much much more
I come to you
with words to do justice
you're the best mum ever
I love you mostest
Just don't tell the others
we both know
I'm the real child
the rest were adopted ;)
luv ya mum -- t-k
I can only say
through all the fights
and fits we've had
I love you still
till the end
You brought me here
into this world
to become you
and much much more
I come to you
with words to do justice
you're the best mum ever
I love you mostest
Just don't tell the others
we both know
I'm the real child
the rest were adopted ;)
luv ya mum -- t-k
to my daddy...
thanks dad
for being there
when i needed a buddy
someone to laugh with
thanks dad
for making things better
knowing it could get worse
thanks dad
for helping me see
that life goes on
and doesn't stand still
thanks dad
for seeing me
as your angel forever
thanks dad
for saying your proud
oh so proud
just to be my father
thanks dad
for being like me
and always laughing
t-k
for being there
when i needed a buddy
someone to laugh with
thanks dad
for making things better
knowing it could get worse
thanks dad
for helping me see
that life goes on
and doesn't stand still
thanks dad
for seeing me
as your angel forever
thanks dad
for saying your proud
oh so proud
just to be my father
thanks dad
for being like me
and always laughing
t-k
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
happiness...
I can't seem to think
I can't seem to find
that thing that makes me feel happy inside
Is it art
Is it dancing
Is it anything
Can that be my passion?
I know of people
I know of many
who always know
how to make me happy
But now I see
I need to find
what it is
that makes me feel happy inside
If I don't
I'll never know
that part of me that's missing
that's stopping me from being whole
And if I don't
and if I fail
I will forever be in despair
Cuz I must find
that thing for me
That makes me happy
for being me
I can't seem to find
that thing that makes me feel happy inside
Is it art
Is it dancing
Is it anything
Can that be my passion?
I know of people
I know of many
who always know
how to make me happy
But now I see
I need to find
what it is
that makes me feel happy inside
If I don't
I'll never know
that part of me that's missing
that's stopping me from being whole
And if I don't
and if I fail
I will forever be in despair
Cuz I must find
that thing for me
That makes me happy
for being me
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
a bit of a change?
A bit of a change
for a new beginning
A bit of a change
for all the old strings
A bit of a change
for you and me
A bit of a change
for that new path
A bit of a change
for our love to grow
A bit of a change
for the blog to glow
heheh...lol
for a new beginning
A bit of a change
for all the old strings
A bit of a change
for you and me
A bit of a change
for that new path
A bit of a change
for our love to grow
A bit of a change
for the blog to glow
heheh...lol
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Dreams...
Lately I've been trying to update my blog - but I find it harder to write when I am happy as opposed to writing when I am upset or something. So I wanted to write something a bit more bright compared to my usually dark stuff...so here is goes:
In our dreams
we had each other
nothing else was needed
just our love
That one bond
that one connection
has been holding us together
all through these years
When I thought I lost the best thing
You came back
and brought all the happiness back too
every smile every giggle - it's all because of you
So I wanted to just thank you
For being you
The man of my dreams
I love you
In our dreams
we had each other
nothing else was needed
just our love
That one bond
that one connection
has been holding us together
all through these years
When I thought I lost the best thing
You came back
and brought all the happiness back too
every smile every giggle - it's all because of you
So I wanted to just thank you
For being you
The man of my dreams
I love you
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