- la de da-

It's around that time of year again
when the next two months
meant so much
to you and me

Knowing now that most of it has changed
how those dreams have flown away
and that old woman bundled up in her coat
has so much more in common with me

She sits there waiting
for something
as she watches the world pass by
one moment at a time

It's around that time of year again
when I remember the promises that were made to me
the one that were broken by brothers, elders, and lovers

Do you remember...
How we would sit in your car, on that bench, or in the park and get lost in each others world?
How all you would do is smile and I would look at you the same way when you swept me off my feet?
How I missed you even when you were close because I knew you would have to leave?
How those long bear hugs made it seem like we were doing our own little dance?
How you made me feel safe when I missed the loved ones who left me alone and feeling cold?
How I would hide my eyes from yours so you couldn't see the pain?
How it would always hurt when I missed you?

So now I ask...is it possible to miss someone who is still here but not by your side?
is it possible to think that maybe they stopped caring?
is it possible to think the person you thought knew you the best - didn't know you at all?
is it possible to think that you want to run away from them so that you could stop thinking about the pain?

This surely can't be the end...maybe just another moment in time
where I am frozen again and everyone and everything is rushing by
as I wait like the old lady
watching every moment pass by
as I wait...waiting to know the ins and outs of the contents of your heart
so that maybe I can read you like a book
and make you just as happy as you made me

this is to you....