I wish...

I wish you could hug me right now and tell me it would be ok
I wish I were with you right now
I wish I could fall asleep in your arms
I wish I knew why I was the way I am
I wish you could hold my hand at night
I wish I could tell you everything I ever wanted to say
I wish I wasn't putting up a face for everyone
I wish I could say how much you mean to me
I wish I could go back into the past
I wish I knew where I went wrong
I wish I could say, "I love you!" whenever I wanted
I wish I wasn't so scared of how things could end up

And yet...

I wish I didn't feel so selfish for all these wishes
Oh how much there is I wish for...Oh how much

Sometimes I wonder about the things I've done
Maybe I could've stopped myself from this huge deep plunge
I took it all in too quick and now its time to see
Maybe this isn't how things are supposed to be.